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Esmeralda SiamendessaidPages before the entries below start with messy scribbles that grow more schooled over time. The first few pages are babbles of a seven year old about her days at school and friends there. After a gap of a few months, most records after that are lists of meds taken and summary of dreams. In the midst of it all, some pages are simply full of doodles birthed out of a bored psyche. The book looks weathered with a simple red binding. The word ‘Diary’ on its cover had been once circled with a heart but it has been later on penned out in angry, black slashes. Penmanship of oldest years wrote ‘Meds’, as if to further dissociate herself from the child that once had drawn such a thing. The last entry, before those new ones, is from five years ago, when Esmeralda was nineteen. Date XX/XX/XX ((5 days before the Outbreak)) I promised myself that I would write in this only when it finally came true. They all can feel something is happening. They are scared. Date XX/XX/XX ((1 day before the Outbreak)) I keep hearing stories. People think I’ll pay them for the info, thinking I can make something out of it. They don’t realize yet. He said I was the one rotten inside that all those things were in my head. That I needed to keep them all there. I told him. I told them. No one believed me. I think tomorrow I will go home. I want to see HIM. Date XX/XX/XX ((Day of the Outbreak – writing is shaky and barely readable)) I killed HIM! Date XX/XX/XX ((3 days after the Outbreak)) I killed her too. I’ll never have to look into her eyes again. I wanted to take them but instead I took HIS hand. I wonder if he knew I would feel this way. Everyone could see who he really was now. Date XX/XX/XX ((4 days after the Outbreak)) I took Caiden with me. I almost wanted to leave him with them. All those years, he did not see. Behind his screens and his games, he did not see. Until the end, even with them rotting in front of him, he did not see. Perhaps, now, I can show him. ((The ink of the pen looks of a slightly different tint, as if some time had passed before the next words were written)) Dom and Emmy are with us as well. They came looking for Caiden. Dom is the same. Date XX/XX/XX ((5 days after the Outbreak – Writing is shaky again)) People can’t see. You keep the rot inside. Date XX/XX/XX ((7 days after the Outbreak)) Some days I manage to forget, I don’t even know if it’s here or not. Date XX/XX/XX ((13 days after the Outbreak)) I think I am scared. ((Again the ink would have looked it had time to dry before the next words))
Date XX/XX/XX ((14 days after the Outbreak)) I don’t know what else to do. I have to write something, if only to help with the boredom. I didn't have time to be scared until now. Keep us alive, until we are the last ones. They looked so beautiful, just like I pictured them. One by one. It was easy. I have been waiting but I don’t know why. I won’t have to take them in the end that way. It will be easier. And yet I can’t seem to leave those fucking docks. Date XX/XX/XX ((15 days after the Outbreak)) I met someone today. Date XX/XX/XX ((18 days after the Outbreak)) I am running out of food and the docks are empty. Too many people go through them, nothing really lasts. If this keeps up I will have to go into the city. Date XX/XX/XX ((22 days after the Outbreak – The pages looks slightly undulated from water)) I had to leave. I am in the woods now. I think I will hunt tomorrow. Date XX/XX/XX ((25 days after the Outbreak)) I hunted. I have food. I feel better. I think I heard one of them last night. |
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