It’s been how long now? My days have began to run together, I use to keep up with it, but for what? No reason to keep up with it anymore, holidays don’t matter, birthdays don’t matter, nothing really matters much anymore. We push on, Cas and I, because we have to. We push on, because we both need each other… to survive in this world as we know it. I’d have no reason to go on without him, my parents, siblings, friends, their all gone now.  What other reason would I have to even continue without him ? He is my world, my protector, my life. Four years of marriage and he still seems to amaze me daily, even now. We have seen each other at our worst, since this has all happened. The stress, the worrying… the what if’s… he still loves me  through it all… he still loves me, no matter what.  But isn’t that what a marriage is suppose to be? Till death do us part? For better or for worse? In sickness and in health…..I do. I still do, I always will, he has been the only person to stick with me through everything. Through thick and thin….we push on. Even with my face covered in dirt, my clothes torn from the limbs of the woods ripping the fabric he still tells me I’m beautiful everyday. Even at my ugliest he still says that….which to me is truly amazing, because he loves me for me, not what I look like but for who I am. We had a nice life before everything happened, we wanted children, to live our happily ever after until the dead started walking the earth. Every time I see one of them I see red, I see hate, but most importantly I see the person that they once was, and for a split second I almost feel bad for them, its not their fault, but I have to do things I never thought I would have to do… just to survive, its exhausting really. Exhausting to have to search for food and water everyday, to watch my back and lose sleep because I want to live just one more day in this world. We push on because we have to…for each other.