**Disclaimer: Mi-Hyun’s journal is entirely from her IC perspective, where she deals with her innermost conflicts and emotions. It is where she gets them out. It can be intense and emotional, because that is how Mi-Hyun is under the surface. Keep in mind she has her own trauma and triggers from the world too. None of it is intended to be meant or taken OOC. I like to fully immerse myself into my character and her world, so this is one way to do it. I very much like realistic, deep and detailed RP and storylines. Especially with it’s own drama and multiple layers. Characters and their imperfections.

Mi-Hyun’s Journal is written in an old diary by hand. She often leaves it with her things where ever she stores them. If anyone ever wants to get a hold of it or go through her things, IM me and let me know.

Knowing someone’s innermost thoughts can be a double edged sword though, since her journal does not have the same politeness or sugar coating Mi-Hyun does! It is literally an open book to the world through her eyes. And it is sometimes funny, and sometimes cruel, but it is all Mi-Hyun. The diary also reflects her current state of mind and psychological health, which is something I am keeping track of along with her physical health. I keep track of everything on my characters. It adds a new layer for me to consider her mental health condition along with her physical health condition.**
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Oᴄᴛᴏʙᴇʀ 17ᴛʜ, Dᴏʟʟ Lᴇɢs.
~Returned to the Dollhouse to find the place had been attacked by raiders.

Men with masks that wanted protection money and a girl I heard.

We will need to make an example of them.

And to increase security at the Dollhouse.

I will need to talk to David and Wheels about this.

I have been out roaming.

I found a stuffed animal near the Amusement Park.

It’s Soo-Yeon’s birthday this month. She’s a Halloween Baby.

My firstborn.

Of all I lost, I still have one of her inhalers.

If she’s out there, and her asthma acts up… If she panics or hyperventilates…

I realize I don’t want to die.

But it hurts so much.

Everyone I love missing.

Both the injured in the Dollhouse got shot in the leg. Just like the boss.

I hope I don’t get shot in the leg too.

I wonder if I can get access to morphine and anesthesia from the Dollhouse to add to my medical kit.

I still need a pistol. When I get one… Maybe I can risk an expedition into the ruins.

I treated the wounded back at the hospital. Sterilized them, stitched them, bandaged them.

Performed advanced medicine.

And then was defeated by the File Cabinet Boss Fight.

Dae-Hyun would say it was like Dark Souls.

I gave up and moved on. Too complex and confusing to figure out right now.

I like that we have a file system, an attempt at organization, and I get that the world is not used to working without computers, but who is the supreme sadist that inflicted this pandora’s cabinet of pandemonium upon us? Haven’t those here suffered enough!?

Doesn’t help having to perform medical treatment with no power.

The stuffed animal would make a good present for Soo-Yeon. I will move it to my room.

I wonder what things are like in Korea.

If there are still any boats that could take me back home.

Not that I am sure I would want to go… I am still shamed… But… Wouldn’t it be better if Korea is still normal?

Could I abandon my family when there is a chance I can still find them?

I will go search the beach again.

I have a scope now.

I hate being alone.

I miss being loved.

I miss my babies.

I miss my man.
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