**Disclaimer: Mi-Hyun’s journal is entirely from her IC perspective, where she deals with her innermost conflicts and emotions. It is where she gets them out. It can be intense and emotional, because that is how Mi-Hyun is under the surface. Keep in mind she has her own trauma and triggers from the world too. None of it is intended to be meant or taken OOC. I like to fully immerse myself into my character and her world, so this is one way to do it. I very much like realistic, deep and detailed RP and storylines. Especially with it’s own drama and multiple layers. Characters and their imperfections.

Mi-Hyun’s Journal is written in an old diary by hand. She often leaves it with her things where ever she stores them. If anyone ever wants to get a hold of it or go through her things, IM me and let me know.

Knowing someone’s innermost thoughts can be a double edged sword though, since her journal does not have the same politeness or sugar coating Mi-Hyun does! It is literally an open book to the world through her eyes. And it is sometimes funny, and sometimes cruel, but it is all Mi-Hyun. The diary also reflects her current state of mind and psychological health, which is something I am keeping track of along with her physical health. I keep track of everything on my characters. It adds a new layer for me to consider her mental health condition along with her physical health condition.**
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Oᴄᴛᴏʙᴇʀ 1sᴛ, Aʀʀɪᴠᴀʟ.
~The boats gone.

Everything on it is gone too. John. Soo-Yeon. Dae-Hyun. The twins… I am thinking about killing myself…

I roamed the beach for hours. Looking for wreckage. Looking for my family.

The beach is not tropical. I see buildings. Signs of civilizations. People?

Will they be deadheads? Hostile?

I’m cold. I’m wet. I’m alone.

I suppose I would be hungry if I didn’t feel too sick to eat.

Yesterday on the boat. It was like heaven. John and I even had sex on the deck while the kids slept. I never thought I would be so happy they could be so lazy.

Then the storm came.

Not zombies. Not men.

The one thing we couldn’t prepare for. Natural disaster.

Being adrift at sea in a storm with only a life preserver to cling too is more scary than anything on land.

At least the fish don’t get infected. Maybe I should study the effect of the virus on aquatic flora and fauna if I ever get back in a lab. Maybe there is something in the sea that could help us on land…

I kept telling myself it’s just water. I swam until exhausted. Then I passed out.

I awoke on shore. Maybe they made it too.

My babies.

Maybe they made it too…

Soo-Mee and Soo-Hee were only ten. Soo-Yeon’s birthday was… Is this month. Dae-Hyun’s next month.

What could I have gotten them? I will get them anything if they are okay.

I can’t give up on them. I have to try to find them. We were close to shore…

I lost my pistol in the sea. My rifle was still on the boat…

Everything was on the boat…

God I feel so sick. I can’t stop crying.

What should I tell people if I find them?

What if they are like the militia?

Should I give them what they want?

Use them… And let them use me?

Maybe I shouldn’t mention my family.

It’s getting dark. Has it been a whole day already?

Where are they?

John, I love you so much… If any one of us can survive I know you can.

Please find me. Please save me. I’ll let you win every argument from now on.

I’ll even remember to turn the lights off.

I will even let you control the thermostat.

Please be okay… I will keep going. I will keep surviving.

Only if you do too.
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