Aren’t you, perhaps, feeling lonely? Aren’t you, perhaps, living slavishly? Are you able to laugh with an honest heart like i do now ? Well.. I am now at a place where i feel most restful… Next to a person i find most dear.

♬♫♪ Theme Song ♬♪♫

I have been thinking and thinking a lot.. i really wish i could share my mind with others or give them access to it, but i’m afraid that’s an impossible thing to do, that would just make life too easy, thus too boring don’t you think ? after all life isn’t meant to be easy,  if it’s easy, you’re just doing it wrong.
STILL i thought that maybe writing what’s on my mind will free me from some thoughts and feelings and here they are below.. here is a fragment of my story.

No matter the journey, when we come to a fork in the road, we must decide in an instant which path to take, and i’ve chosen mine, it was Arklay’s.

I realized so many things in a short time lapse :

• Truth can change its form depending on the observer.
• Expecting others to read your mind and know you are good intended is delusional.
• Hard work isn’t always rewarded and sometimes even your biggest efforts will be ignored, and your smallest mistake will be judged.
• Most people are irresponsible, changing their opinions easily based on unconfirmed information or convenient rumors or appearances.
• Humans are suspicious and jealous creatures, When they see something perfect, they wanna find a flaw, If they can’t find it they are willing to create one even if it’s a fake.
• Being prepared to die doesn’t mean shit in this new world.. The real hard part, is being prepared to live, in other words anyone can die, it’s living through real hardship that requires more courage.
• People do not exist to protect rules, Rules exist to protect people, in other words you might break some rules for the greater good, if breaking the rules mean killing some people well then SO BE IT.

My newest life’s conclusion ?
I don’t want to fight for the sake of humanity.. it is not worth it, instead i wish to fight for the sake of the few ones i care about, because i couldn’t care less about the rest of the world.  So i don’t have to protect everyone out there not anymore,  i just have to help the ones i’ve chosen to care for, the rest can just kill each others and get eaten alive if that’s what they are here for.

 
So Before ARC Leaves, my companions and i made our vows ” We Azraels, go now to the field of battle! Believe that our blades will not shatter! Believe that our spirits will not break! Even if we walk separate paths, our iron resolve shall remain united! Swear! That even if the ground beneath us crumbles…we shall return here, alive, again..!” and they were gone in an instant.. but you think something like that would hurt me, after all I’ve been through?

Let me tell you something you don’t know about my resolve, no matter what happens, i’ll keep on moving, until this life runs out of me, and i’ll keep on standing, walking and surviving because i know that as long as i am alive there will be better things later…there will be many, This present will always be different from the past, and that’s what makes life good and at the same time sad, that sadness in turn gives my everyday life some flavor, now i am not a masochist !! i just think life is like a good coffee it’s bitter yet with a touch of sweetness.

This is because i know that having happy and beautiful memories won’t always bring me salvation, The more beautiful a memory is, the more painful it can become, It can even become terrifying, Both for the ones who are leaving… And for the ones left behind, it’s  always sad to part with those whom fought by your side, but new companions will always help bear the sadness.

So now i can gallop forward without looking back at my leaving brethren.

Farewell ARC.