So I’m writing in this book, cuz well, i guess it’s supposed me make me feel better, or help me to figure things out, but seriously, I really wish someone else could make up my mind for me. I mean, since I have been here in Arklay,  I’ve watched people be attacked. That is the whole reason I stayed to myself. The zombies are so much easier to deal with than people, an arrow to the head, no regrets. Would be easier if I could just do the same to some people, but of course I can’t, I have a conscience. And face it, I’m not much of a fighter, shooting a crossbow from afar is a lot different than coming up face to face with someone that wants to kill you.

Is it just me or are a lot of the people here not right? I mean, yes, I have met some great people. Like Dani who gave me a job at the diner, and Jason who taught me the ropes there. Of course Dani did try to kill Jason, but that was totally understandable. Deandra and Suz are both so sweet and great friends to talk to, and Rogue, she stops by to check on me when I’m working, but still, I don’t really feel safe. There is some seriously bizarre shit going on here, a group called the four that doesn’t kill zombies, they act as if they are some weird kind of pets or something, At least that is what the weird guy in the mask was like the other day at the diner, just what this world needs, zombies rights activists, whatever. I don’t want to know any more than that regarding the four. I plan on staying far away from them.

I found this flyer the other day, It is for this place called the Dollhouse, It says it is safe there, that you get food and shelter, I did a bit of investigating and quickly figured out what kind of place it was. Why didn’t that dissuade me? I should have immediately tossed aside the flyer, but I still have it, I don’t know why I kept it, I guess in case things get really bad. There would be better than on my own, like I said, I’m not much of a fighter. I’ve never had to make it on my own before. I’m not very good at it. Maybe I’m just not cut out for this life anymore.

I’m laying here in my nightshirt, relaxing after working all day at the diner. I’m tired, and my muscles ache. I just want to go to sleep, but my mind won’t shut off. So much going through it, so many decisions that I don’t want to make. Should I stay here in Arklay where things aren’t really all that safe? I do have a job and a few people I can talk to here. Should I go off by myself living in the woods like I was? At least there I know I’m safe, I am quite good at hiding, and can pick off most anything with my bow before it even knows I’m there, but it was lonely by myself in the woods. Then there is this Dollhouse place. Could I really be in a place like that? Do what I would probably be required to do? I mean it’s not like I’ve never had a boyfriend before, how hard could it be. At least I would be safe right? I’m too tired to think about this anymore so I’m just going to try and get some sleep, Maybe I will go for a walk first, clear my  head a bit.