[[All entries are assumed to be written in Russian. For the sake of this Journal the entries are translated into English so the players can follow the story as it progresses.]]

March 7th…

Two days it took to get there and back. Maybe because I’m learning my way back to the city the further I venture out. I managed to find a few supplies from the list, but not everything. Still, should be enough to secure that position and gain access to a bit more stock. At least that would earn me a bit of cash.. unless this Cake, woman is cheaper than I thought. Still, it was quire refreshing to be home. However, once I got there, I was greeted by Angel, and Jade, a broken door, and a bullet hole in my wall. I should have known immediately what happened. I expected it. When I asked, Jade avoided telling me immediately, Evangeline sang like a bird. She claimed Domenic tried to rape her, and some random passerby kicked in my door to save her.. Kicked in my reinforced Steel door that was made to withstand Zombie horde to save her, and she shot at the man to make him leave. Needless to say, I find that hard to believe. She was likely looking for some praise, but I was sure that she was the reason for it all.

Still, the conversation they apparently wanted to have, wasn’t going to happen simply because they wanted to discuss a relationship between me and Evangeline, that I didn’t have. It became clear that she didn’t tell Jade everything either. No worries about that, I made sure she knew, while she was pleasuring me. So, i recounted everything, before I started to explain why all her sobs and her words meant next to nothing. How she allowed me to touch her inappropriately, how she straddled me after crawling into bed with me, grind her little cunt down on me, and all the other mixed signals she gave. She was apparently okay with being the little sister, until I told her that she was the little sister, now she suddenly wanted more. I gave her the time of day to explain that no matter what she said, her actions proved otherwise. They only proved she was the little girl that she acted like, and most definitely not a woman to be desired.. not by my standards. She’d be good for one thing, and one thing alone: laying on her back, or crawling on all fours while taking a man inside her… and that is even pushing it as she’s not experienced enough… Okay, maybe that was a bit harsh even for her. The point still stands, sending such mixed messages, anxiety or whatever she calls it is only going to invite trouble. Trouble that I won’t be able to save her from.. Trouble that will follow her home and endanger everyone else.

Still, even after trying to make sense of everything she’s told me when compared and contrasted to everything she’s done, the only thing she took away from the entire conversation was, “Fuck off” (her words not mine). The entire point of wasting this time, and it has been a waste of time apparently, was to tell her one thing. To stop trying to be what she thinks I wanted her to be, and just be who she was. She couldn’t be truthful with me in that sense. She swore up and down that she was ‘planning to talk’ to me when she could get me ‘alone and in private.’ In what world does she believe the world will wait for her to be ready to grow up? She spends all her time trying to make people see her point of view, that she doesn’t care to see anyone else’s. She spends all her time trying to change herself to be something that I never asked her to be, to do things I never asked her to do, defending herself against things I never accused her of doing. She got the relationship she wanted with me, she didn’t want to be anything more than a friend, and now she’s upset.. no.. She left because I don’t see her as anything more.. or at least, I didn’t see her as she wanted me to see her. Just like an upset child, storming out of the room when they don’t get their way, yelling, screaming and carrying on, throwing tantrums when they can’t get what they want, Evangeline stormed out of the house for getting exactly what she wanted.

Just like that, she turned her back on the family that took her in, though she claimed she hated being alone. This is just like Amber all over again. Wanted to be a part of the family so bad.. So much so that she offered herself up as my submissive right along side Jade. She wasn’t honest with herself either, spending all her time trying to be what she thought I wanted, and failing. Her and Jade became friends, and I often warned Jade not to get too attached to her. The girl was very good at playing the victim, much like Evangeline was trying to do. She even went as far as to try to manipulate the crew, and a band of raiders that were camped near our dock. Well, when she didn’t get what she wanted, she stormed off and joined the raiders, trying to manipulate them into attacking the crew and killing all of us.. into killing Jade, so that she could be First Lady. Jade doesn’t know this.. When we went to get her back, I overheard everything, and instead of a gunfight, I purposely attracted a horde of Rot-heads to their hide out.. It only took a signal flare, and a dog. In the chaos, I shot Amber in the leg when she tried to run away from the horde and leave her new bed-mates to die.. which they did. The look in her eye when I removed the arrow, then shot her in her other leg, brought me much satisfaction. I left her to die for that betrayal.. The Zombies tore her apart, and I actually ran into Jade, who was part of the crew coming to look for her. I told Jade that she was dead, but never told her how she died, as it was quite obvious. The crew knew though, and I’m sure she knew I left her to die, but she doesn’t know why.

Feels like this is a repeat of history. Evangeline, is playing Jezebel, just like Amber was. She’s probably out looking for Domenic, after accusing the man of raping her, just like Amber… and will probably try to ruin his reputation and mine, because she’s bitter and spiteful, just like Amber. Where is she now? Seeing as how she brings men home just for giving her the time of day as saying, “Hi..” to her, I can assume she’s laid up in another man’s bed right now, leading him on in the same way she tried to lead me on, all the while pouring her plastic heart out on how we’re all such bad people, and she needs a big strong man to protect her from us.. or just to believe everything she says because she doesn’t want to be alone. See if she wrestles that man on the first day, or allows him to touch her in all her sacred places, strip naked in front of him all on the first day. See if any other man will simply allow her to try to cuckhold their desires while she’s throwing herself at them, and then running out of the room because she can’t accept the fact that she will get horny naturally and men will want her. See if she can display herself as anything but a child trying to find out what she is. See if she does exactly what I believe she will do. See if she proves me wrong.

She made her choice, and I told Jade those words she has been longing to hear. “Open Season.” She knows exactly what that means, and Evangeline doesn’t have my protection anymore. More trouble than she’s worth. Part of me is disappointed in her choosing to leave, rather than facing the reality that she built, but the other part is glad to be rid of this negativity… this poison that will tear the family apart from the inside. Now I can focus on what matters.. the Family. Every man is the artisan of his own fortune.. and we will find ours, make it, or take it.

There were four of us… Now there are three….