[[All entries are assumed to be written in Russian. For the sake of this Journal the entries are translated into English so the players can follow the story as it progresses.]]

March 15…

This one will be short.

I took a day off from the Dollhouse. I went get food. I ran into Kitten, and Amber. Kitten was covered in blood, and Amber started her rant again. In some very -not-so-nice- words, I explained to Amber why she would always be alone. She wanted to make another public scene, I made sure everyone knew exactly what sort of person she was. What surprised me more was that Kitten actually stepped up to correct her when she accused me of pushing her out and wanting to kill her for Jade running away. Yeah, Kitten is stuck with me now. No way I’m letting her get away. She’s too much of a prize to just leave for someone else to abuse… like a certain Pub Bouncer… We’ll get to that later.. much later.

Point was that we went back to the trailer after leaving amber to her shit. I wasn’t going to deal with that today. This was a good day and it would end that way. We got Kitten a shower, and I cooked us dinner. Felt good to be back on the stove. I forgot just how good it felt to be normal for once. I actually felt.. human. Lyon got me a gift.. Not the type of materialistic bullshit that Evangeline used to try to use to buy my affection… but an actual gift. It was something she made herself. A necklace that had small trinkets, souvenirs attached from our journeys from Russia to America. There was time, effort, and purpose behind this gift. Its a reminder to me to remember the past, but keep focused on the future, as she told me. That’s probably just what I needed, considering I’ve been kicking my own ass for what I did to Jade. I’ve been trying to make peace with this for years.. but now.. I have just the slightest bit of hope for her. She’s not completely gone.

I told Lyon and Kitten (after i took Kitten’s towel and admired that heaven-sculpted body) that I had a plan. We can get Jade back, but it would be an All-or-nothing, type of plan. Jade has spent years running from her problems.. her demons. She’s spent nearly a year running from the truth of Amber. While this won’t solve all her problems, at least the issue with Amber will be resolved, one way or the other. This will be a large risk.. but the benefits will be worth it. She will have to face the truth.. head on. We’ll have to take her back to that place. Its actually closer to the City than I thought. Probably took us longer to get here because originally we were looking for Jade for months. Scouring the island’s wilderness before finally finding her in the city. The thing we’ll have to do be careful is that we don’t permanently get Amber from this move.

For the first time in a long time, I have hope that we’ll help her. Perhaps its wishful thinking, but I refuse to give up on Jade. She needs to see that she has family that cares enough about her to help her through this journey. One of three outcomes can happen: We can kill Amber and Jade will return to us. We can kill Jade and be stuck with Amber.. or both of them die. Best case scenario, would be the first.. but here’s hoping for the best… while preparing for the worst.

I’d say wish me luck… but we’re going to need a miracle and a blessing to pull this off..