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I am standing on the edge of the pier down by the Palms. The broad expanse of the empty horizon is mirroring what I think my soul must look like right now. The Nothingness has won I think. Even fear is beyond me. Nothingness and a new realization. There is...

I was wrong. There is something more then the predominate feelings of fear and Nothing. There is Pain. I have known pain in the physical and emotional sense before … God knows I have. But I had thought that the ability to feel true, deep emotional agony had been cut...

I feel primarily two things. Fear and Nothing. I suppose it might then be more correct to say that I feel one thing. But in truth, that would not be correct. Nothing is a tangible thing. A cold thing. Sometimes it is painful like an ache and sometimes it is...

  I woke up today thirsty as hell. Don’t think the water around here is safe to drink yet. Even the rain I collected from yesterday’s showers tastes off even after a good boil. Maybe its just paranoia. I climbed the hill again today .. the one with the stone...

Dear Reader I crossed the bridge into Arklay yesterday evening just before full dark. My first greeting was a sign rigged up near the bridges end announcing Food, shelter, a hospital. Was it too good to be true? Apparently not. Unlike a good many false hopes this one seems the...

  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P6Qc7eOiqtI I feel compelled to write today. Can’t say I’ve ever been compelled to write before, but I was layin’ awake the past hour or so next to Kali and just itching .. I have to put it down here. We’ve lost some one important … for some reason...

So … a lot of people have told me to do this, write down my thoughts and stuff. Three in particular .. my therapist, my sister, and Kali. Before now I never have. I mean I have tried. Written a couple sentences here and there .. but I’ve never really...